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Synopsis
In the autumn
of 1979 I began to hear voices and experience other phenomena, and have
done so ever since. Thus in almost 25 years, I have never been free from
intrusions that enter blatantly or subliminally into my mind and mental
faculties, and forcefully or subtly into my body and senses.
I use the word 'intrusion' deliberately, for that is what they are - not
the product of an aberrant mind nor of a diseased brain. Because of what
I was doing at the outset in 1979, I have no doubt, not the slightest
shadow, that what I experience is of spiritual origin. Use of the word
'spiritual' to some immediately suggests 'religion', 'spiritualism', 'theology'
and the like - words that to many are off-putting, and likely to prevent
them from even opening my book. Forget such preconceptions. I am an engineer
and my approach and language are those of an engineer - as precise and
realistic as I can be within a realm of experience that is most imprecise
and unrealistic.
From the beginning I have kept notes, which from 1998 began to turn into
coherent writing as I became computer literate. In my parallel reading
from the field of mental health, I found what are called 'The First Rank
Symptoms' of schizophrenia, and I realised that I had experienced them
all, and recorded and written of them, albeit in my own words. Yet - and
this is the most important point that I am desperately trying to make
- I have never been ill from this cause, and neither have I, nor would
I seek help or intervention from the world of psychiatry or that of religion.
On the contrary, I write to inform those in both such worlds who endeavour
to help the mentally ill and disturbed.
As fast as I wrote, my words were read avidly by friends who work in the
field of psychiatry. As they read, they wanted to know about 'before'
- i.e. about my life before the onset of the intrusions. I realised that
I should indeed write about 'before', in order to separate it from the
events of 1979 and what has followed, for apart from the fact that both
sequences happened to me, they are totally unconnected.
What happened 'before' is a story in itself, and it forms the first part
of my book. In 1961 I had a successful career in the nuclear industry
- a career of which I was robbed through the consequences of a medical
misdiagnosis, and inappropriate and unnecessary medication. What is now
known to have been a Cryptosporidia infection was treated as if 'nervous',
and I began a life with Librium. After two years continuous use, an addict,
dependent, and showing many of the side-effects of the drug, I began a
'psychiatric' year that opened with two episodes of cold turkey, hospitalisation
for a total of twenty weeks, 23 E.C.T.s, 'experiments' with a variety
of drugs such as Tryptizol, Melleril, Valium Pertofran and assorted benzodiazepines
and barbiturates plus insulin shock 'therapy' - and that ended with a
farcical second opinion from someone who went on to become a doyen in
the world of psychiatry.
I retired early with my career and home wrecked, and in total, in real
terms, I have lost over a half million pounds. But hard though it may
be to believe, effectively I began a new life. It is a life that has been
and is both fascinating and rewarding - even though after four years it
included the events that then led to the spiritual intrusions. For, as
I found out, not only are there the malevolent - the ones that plague
the 'schizophrenic' - but there are also the benevolent.
The whole story is there in the book - of how under the tuition of renowned
healer, the late Bruce Macmanaway, I found that I also had a talent to
heal. It is a talent that I have used hopefully to good effect, and which
has brought me many rewards in encounters with wonderful people.
My 'engineering' approach has led to a study of our interaction with the
electrical environment, and an understanding of aspects of electricity
and health. Becoming aware of the electrical nature of acupuncture I expanded
my knowledge and experience in this field also.
I identified over thirty different ploys that are used by intruding 'entities',
and describe these in detail. I also realised that channels into the minds
of the vulnerable can be opened via such activities as hypnotism and hypnotherapy,
past life regression, Reiki, channelling and various forms of 'divination'.
There are cautions, too, for those involved in spirit release, and many
of the esoteric practices that involve 'opening the mind'.
Among my heroes are such diverse individuals as Galileo, Paracelsus and
Nikola Tesla, and I quote and draw conclusions from them as I do from
the writing and communications of a wide variety of psychiatrists, psychologists
and others in the field of mental health, such as Irving Gottesman, Julian
Jaynes, Martin Roth, Kenneth McAll, A.W.Drummond, Wilson Van Dusen, Richard
Mackarness - to name a few. I have also drawn from that well-known hearer
of voices and seer of visions, Teresa of Avila.
I am making my book freely available, for it is important that it is read.
The only price that I ask is that you should use it or put it to use for
others who are struggling within the morass that their mind has become,
and that you should tell others of its Web address. I am now 82, and still
have many other things to achieve, so I cannot undertake to respond to
any or all communications, but will try. In the meantime I can join poet
W.B.Yeats, and speculate -
Where My Books go
All the words that I
utter,
And all the words that I write,
Must spread out their wings untiring,
And never rest in their flight,
Till they come to where your sad, sad heart is…
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